I'm feeling good except for the awful charlie horses I had this morning. I had 3 in a row--the last brought me to tears and ran up into my knee and thigh. Guess I better really chow down on bananas & drink a lot more water. I didn't get many w/Maddy, but I was plagued by them w/Sophie. I do not want to do that again!!
Newbie moves a lot. He mainly feels like he's stretching & yawning in there. Its too cute. He's even poked his sisters a few times. Sophie cracks up & wants to feel more, while Maddy gets sorta weirded out. Cannot believe they're gonna be BIG sisters!!
I started packing my & Newbie's hospital bags yesterday. I don't care how early it is. I just want to make sure I'm prepared & not scrambling to get Brian to pack this or that to bring to me. Of course they'll be a few last minute things to go in, but I plan on getting everything ready to go by the end of the week. I can't wait for my bassinet to arrive, so I can set it up & see if my bassinet sheets I got from freecycle will fit it.
I was hit with a pang of anxiety yesterday about having to do it all on my own. How am I gonna do it? It looks like Brian's job's gonna be working M-F well over 100 miles away, so he'll be hopefully staying with friends closer to work. Or the other shift is overnight (12 hrs) on the weekends. Either way, he's not gonna be able to help me with the kids until we find a place to move into of our own. With luck, by the end of summer we'll be out, but that still means I gotta do it myself & I'm freaking out a bit. I don't like the idea of having to be apart from Brian so much, but its for the greater good!! They're supposed to call today telling him hours etc, so hopefully it works well.
I just know I'm not gonna get help from family, so I gotta figure out how I'm gonna do it on my own. I'm not the first mama nor the last to do this. I just wish I had the comfort of my own home instead of 2 other people living there. Stress will be higher & I'm worried about getting privacy I need with breast feeding, but I've just gotta pray hard for it to all work out.
Wow. Didn't mean for that all to be so down, but I need to get it out. I'll try to be happier in the next post. Lol!